glad that you were end.hahaha.actually hate you damn much because of you, i was suffering a worst emotion disease which known as philophobia. haha. i was realized that when i was reading a blog which contains these statement,
"I'm suffering of a bad case of philophobia; fear of emotional attachment; fear of being or falling in love. I know, I might have made this up in my mind, it might not even be real, but I know, things get harder for me now, more than ever."
hey, i also felling the same thing as like as you babe.gosh!i have philophobia. huhu. =(
also learning my lesson in every point view of life such as friendship, love, family. when i was really down and needs the shoulder to put my head, friends come and not just offered their shoulders, but also hands to wipe the tears and theirs eyes and ears (attention)to cure the pain. thanks friends.
but friends come and go. i don't know where are the mistakes but i hope that we can be friends like the old times. miss that very much! but friends who always stick with me now, really appreciate that. glad to knowing you guys and hope our friendship will be last forever. the TOGAPs. thus, l learn what are the exactly meaning of FRIENDS and BACKSTABBER.
love.
now i know why did the people always said that when you're ready to be loved, actually at the same time you also ready to be hurt. i understand it now. i felt the pain. the pain which was someone that i love so much hurting me so badly. leaving me for other girl. leaving me who always beside him every time and every where in 2 years and 4 month. with the pain, it teaches me to be more tougher and independent in next coming days. but to believe and falling love again?no. not for me. for this time, it takes a long time to do it. thus, now i know you already happy with her and hope both of you will always get the best in your entire life.i always pray for you.
love.
now i know why did the people always said that when you're ready to be loved, actually at the same time you also ready to be hurt. i understand it now. i felt the pain. the pain which was someone that i love so much hurting me so badly. leaving me for other girl. leaving me who always beside him every time and every where in 2 years and 4 month. with the pain, it teaches me to be more tougher and independent in next coming days. but to believe and falling love again?no. not for me. for this time, it takes a long time to do it. thus, now i know you already happy with her and hope both of you will always get the best in your entire life.i always pray for you.
family.
even sometimes i always said that i hate to going back home after this but actually i did not mean it. i really enjoyed to have yummy supper in the middle of night such as goreng pisang, pancakes.hahaha. really enjoyed laughing together even all of us was in front of the public. and mama and ayah, sorry for the terrible words that came out from my stupid mouth and thanks being so supportive when yunus leaving me for the other girls. same goes to my siblings that always there beside me every time and everywhere even all of us always fighting each other like cats and dogs but i knows that it was the way of how we love each other.right?love you guys.
but thanks to 2009. through you, i learned so many things and for now i thinks i almost understand what the real life are. but OMK! aku ada philophobia.*tak habes-habes.*
and welcome 2010!
hope you can brighten my day with happiness and no more sadness, tears and pain. and also bring the success, prosperity and longevity for me and the whole family.ok? promise?
p/s: kata-kata akhir aku tentang perasaan.walau apa-apa pun kasut roxy tu tetap ada dalam perancangan.jangan risau.haha
sincerely,
1 comment:
o yeah ! go togaps go. haha.
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